Just keepin' on keepin' on

Yes... I'm still here!  We are still here...

An update on S's health.... he is doing fine... recuperating nicely.  The incision is healing great and he is slowly but surely getting his full range of motion back.  He probably won't ever be 100%  but he'll get close!  We make sure he doesn't over due and try to walk him regularly.  That wasn't his only health issue that we have to deal with.  Now he is finishing up on his other issue... and electrical issue of sorts.  It's a waiting game.... I'm hoping we win, but waiting is so frustrating... the questions.. the wondering why.... I don't like waiting games.  I'm not good at them... and nobody likes to suck at a game!

We are traveling for Thanksgiving and I'm sure that will be fun.  A nice distraction.  Family.. good food.... lots of laughing... Black Friday(or is it Brown Thursday now that some of the stores are starting on Thanksgiving Evening??)  No time to be sad... or frustrated or anything like that.  It's a time to be thankful what what we have!  We have our health... our kids...our home... job... family... friends...we live in a country that offers us freedoms that not everyone has!  I have so much to be thankful for!!

Still I'm a bit melancholy... maybe a bit sad.  I had a dream last night that S died.  One of those dreams that seem so real that your relieved to wake up.  In this dream, he died but somehow was "there" and was helping to make the arrangements... comforting me... It was really weird.  At the end, I had to tell him to get into the casket because he didn't really "get" that he had to leave.  Dreams are so weird.

We are working toward getting back to "normal"... what ever that might be.  We'll see.  It's very hard being submissive to someone who doesn't demand it.  I would, I have to admit, like him to be a bit more aggressive when it comes to Dd, I would like to have to answer to him, but he doesn't seem to feel the need to be answered to.  It's been almost 2 weeks... I'm sure he will get back into the Dd mode, but I have decided that I'm not going to ask for it... prod him about it.  I'm going to be his loving submissive wife.. doing  for him what he needs to heal and wait.  Wait for him to remember what he needs to do... where he needs to stand. He'll get it all figured out in his head... we'll talk... we'll love.

Maybe he'll read my blog... that would just be way easier!! I haven't posted much lately, so I may need to suggest he read here... I don't know, we'll see....