Reconnection

It is so hard being in the same room with other and feeling a bit alone.  It's kinda been that way here lately.  I'm not really sure why, but it has been.  I think I know why and it all makes sense... but just because you know why, doesn't make it any easier.  S has been hanging out at home these days... in his purgatory... not really doing anything.  Resting... watching TV...being restless...  On the upside he is definitely getting plenty of rest after the surgery... not getting a chance to reinjure himself so that is wonderful.  He has a tendency to try to over due it but in this place he is right now, there is no chance in that for a while.

So even though we have been spending all our time together, we may have been drifting a bit.  Not that we don't love each other, but absence really does make the heart grow fonder!  It seems to me that the stress of having him around 24/7 may be as stressful as when they are gone for days!  At least that's how it looks from this point of view!! ;o)

Things have been pretty quite in our room... I didn't want to hurt him, I've been trying to be patient but sometimes that translates into quietness and disconnectedness.  I don't like feeling this way... but I don't want to make him feel bad for not being.. well... you know, interested healed up.  He makes me feel very loved, but you know when you are so used to doing the horizontal limbo nearly every night and all of a sudden NUTHIN'...notta.... zilch....zero.  Ok, I'm being unfair...I may be exaggerating, but I have been missing the whole package!  We were loving... intimate... together... but it just hasn't been the same, till last night!!!

WWWooo HHHoooo!!

Reconnection!!

God I love my man! :o)