Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Just keepin' on keepin' on

Yes... I'm still here!  We are still here...

An update on S's health.... he is doing fine... recuperating nicely.  The incision is healing great and he is slowly but surely getting his full range of motion back.  He probably won't ever be 100%  but he'll get close!  We make sure he doesn't over due and try to walk him regularly.  That wasn't his only health issue that we have to deal with.  Now he is finishing up on his other issue... and electrical issue of sorts.  It's a waiting game.... I'm hoping we win, but waiting is so frustrating... the questions.. the wondering why.... I don't like waiting games.  I'm not good at them... and nobody likes to suck at a game!

We are traveling for Thanksgiving and I'm sure that will be fun.  A nice distraction.  Family.. good food.... lots of laughing... Black Friday(or is it Brown Thursday now that some of the stores are starting on Thanksgiving Evening??)  No time to be sad... or frustrated or anything like that.  It's a time to be thankful what what we have!  We have our health... our kids...our home... job... family... friends...we live in a country that offers us freedoms that not everyone has!  I have so much to be thankful for!!

Still I'm a bit melancholy... maybe a bit sad.  I had a dream last night that S died.  One of those dreams that seem so real that your relieved to wake up.  In this dream, he died but somehow was "there" and was helping to make the arrangements... comforting me... It was really weird.  At the end, I had to tell him to get into the casket because he didn't really "get" that he had to leave.  Dreams are so weird.

We are working toward getting back to "normal"... what ever that might be.  We'll see.  It's very hard being submissive to someone who doesn't demand it.  I would, I have to admit, like him to be a bit more aggressive when it comes to Dd, I would like to have to answer to him, but he doesn't seem to feel the need to be answered to.  It's been almost 2 weeks... I'm sure he will get back into the Dd mode, but I have decided that I'm not going to ask for it... prod him about it.  I'm going to be his loving submissive wife.. doing  for him what he needs to heal and wait.  Wait for him to remember what he needs to do... where he needs to stand. He'll get it all figured out in his head... we'll talk... we'll love.

Maybe he'll read my blog... that would just be way easier!! I haven't posted much lately, so I may need to suggest he read here... I don't know, we'll see....


  1. Mikki, I understand that waiting game, I'm not so great with it either especially when it comes to my guys health. He is also dealing with some issues and I am finding it frustrating. I'm going to try and take a page from you're book and be grateful for all that I have and really try to be patient with the health issue. Have a wonderful and safe trip.

  2. Aww, sorry things have been hard Mikki. The man's not a mind reader (Grant keeps reminding me)so send him the link! I hope you have a wonderful Thanksgiving! Sara

  3. Mikki, you always have a great attitude! I hope you know that. Maybe he will read your blog. I'm glad that he's doing better and your lives are slowly getting back to normal.

  4. Dreams can be so nice or so upsetting...I'm sorry you dreamed that your husband died. That's a truly horrible thing to dream, but I'm sure your subconscious has just been worried about his health. Leave it in God's hands and try not to worry!


  5. What an awful dream! I think it just speaks to the fact that you're worried about him. I'm glad he's healing up nicely and I hope you have safe travels and a great Thanksgiving! :)

  6. Hi Mikki - to dream if someone passing away usually signals a new beginning. I would possibly interpret your dream seeing it was S that died, as THAT part (his ill health) has died/gone, and you are working together for a NEW direction. New phase of your lives together. :). Dreaming of death is not a bad thing. It can also mean birth of a baby :)

    I hope S reads of your longings and "helps" :)

    Have a safe and lovely Thanksgiving.

    Take care. Sky xx

  7. faeire... I'm glad I could inspire you to count your blessings!! I'm so sorry that your hubby is having health issues! Hope things are looking up soon! ((hugs))

  8. Sara... Yeah, I know he's not a mind reader, most of the time that is a good thing!! *giggling* I'll mention my post... Hope you all have a great Thanksgiving also!

    Susie... Thank you but boy howdy, I don't feel like I have a good attitude.. it is definitely a struggle... but well worth is most of the time!!

    Sky.. Honey, I hope

    Kitty... yeah, I think your right... we got some news at the Dr yesterday that was a bit of a set back... nothing we can't live with... just a set back. I'm sure that's what it was all about! Prayer is what it's all about!((hugs))

    Grace... yeah, it was an awful dream but worry does that crazy kinda stuff to our heads!! Hope you have a great Thanksgiving too!! ((hugs))

    Sky... I truly hope we are going in a new direction, cuz if I have a baby I'm gonna strangle me a doctor!! *giggling* Thank you for your warm thoughts!! ((hugs))

  9. Mikki,
    I understand a husband not seeming to want a submissive wife. My Nick has no need for that. So I'm not. I mean I would do anything he asked just as most vanilla wives would do but being truly submissive - in my dreams (really I still dream about it). I hope your trip is great and your husband continues to heal well.


  10. So glad he is recovering well...when he is back to full strngth, I am sure he will want in on some spanking action!!!xxxxxxxx

  11. Mikki, I am glad you and S are getting a bit back to normal. I hope you and your family have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!